Apruzzi Week 7 - Falling Behind in School

 This blog post is quite ironic due to the fact that I am in the midst of "falling behind in school". That phrase is not something a student wants to hear, nor do their parents, and I feel as though that shouldn't be the case. I'm not saying that it is perfectly okay to fall behind in school, but if it was for the right reason, I see nothing wrong with that. 

    As I struggle to complete this post word by word, finger movement by finger movement, with the overwhelming late assignments that need to be completed by midnight, my mind begins to wonder: Why can't anyone understand? I just can not keep up. At this moment, as my computer screen shines dangerously into my eyes, my lips drooped, and my shoulders shrugged, I feel alone, unmotivated, stressed, and simply tired. The stages of falling behind in school are truly interesting if you take a step back and look into them. 

    Personally, this phenomenon always begins with a long day or weekend. Let's take a trip back 2 weeks. I know, 2 weeks sounds like a decade of school work to make up, and well, it is. I recently was hired at a restaurant and was in training for the weekend, there was a lot to learn, and I was entirely overwhelmed. Arrived home from the 4 hours of hell, opened my Chromebook, sighed, sent the "might be late" message to my teachers, and crawled into my bed as if it was the only safe place. As I burrowed under the covers, where I can forget about all my problems, I slowly fell asleep. Monday night (a day later), woke up around 3pm, suffered through volleyball practice half asleep, arrived home at 6:30, ate my first meal of the day, opened my computer, and saw I was assigned 7 new homework assignments due the same night. With the stress of last night's assignments, I was only able to complete 3-4 and slowly fell asleep around 5am. Barely getting through the week with volleyball every single day 4-6:30, the weekend arrives. I forced myself on a night out with friends for a mental health break, arrived home around 11pm. Noticed I was given 4 new (time-consuming) assignments to complete, in that moment, all of my previous happiness from the fun I was able to consume was out the window. With the pessimistic attitude I had grown to have the previous week, I accepted my fate and completed just 2 assignments. So, here we are. The marking period is coming to a close, I have multiple assignments to complete, multiple essays to painfully write and read, multiple videos to painfully watch, etc. The purpose of that entire rant was to show how quickly you can bury yourself deep into the dark ground when it comes to falling behind in school. As I come to a close, I would like to personally congratulate someone, and that is myself. I am so proud of you for catching up on your blogs. I understand the struggle that you still need to go through with the rest of the assignments, you can do it.