Since at least first grade, it feels like every year someone asks us this exact question: "What do you want to be when you grow up?"
It's ironic that I was more certain about what I wanted to be in first grade than I am now, especially with college only a little over a year away. Fortunately, quarantine gave me some time to think about this question as well as where I wanted to go to school. Looking at different schools has led me down a rabbit hole on several occasions and I have found myself growing more anxious each time I think about it. As of right now, I have two colleges that I really want to go to. The only problem is I have no idea which one I would be happier at.
The first option would definitely be a big challenge both athletically and academically which, at times, makes me excited to see what I can do, but when I am not excited I can already feel myself being overwhelmed with such a challenge. The second school would definitely still be a challenge, especially since it utilizes a quarter system instead of semester system, so the classes go into detail really quickly, but I don't think it would be as rigorous. Additionally, the athletics seem like they would be challenging too. However, the issue is that if I end up wanting to transfer from this school, it is going to be pretty difficult since most colleges go by a semester system. Also, I haven't been able to tour the campus due to the pandemic, and just by researching it, I'm not sure yet if I like the area or size of the school.
I have made several pros and cons lists weighing these topics, and countless others, and I seem to end up in the same position every time. I just keep reminding myself that I am not alone and that the answer will become clear with time.
I am the same way! I thought I knew what I wanted to be since like intermediate school, and now all of a sudden I have absolutely no idea. Not being able to tour colleges is really rough because I have no clue what environment I will feel most comfortable in... so you're definitely not alone haha.
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way too, I used to know what I wanted to do, but know I have absolutely no clue! At least you have a list of colleges you're interested in right now, so you at least have an idea of where you want to go. Honestly, I don't even know what college I want to go to yet or what I want to do in the future. I feel like everyone though is in the same situation, so at least that's kind of reassuring.
ReplyDeleteCollege is definitely a really complicated choice, specially in our situation where COVID has restricted our abilities to have college visits and other opportunities that make the choice a little easier. However, I do also think that no matter what college people end up choosing, it will be a ton of fun. Another thing that is nice to keep in mind is that if I, or you, or anyone goes to college thinking they have life figured out, and they end up hating their major, they can just change the track they are on. It is not a big deal and it happens with a ton of people, so it is nice to know we do not have to have everything figured out.
ReplyDeleteCollege has definitely become a stressful and pressuring topic during the past year. I'm pretty certain of what I want to do, but sometimes I do have doubts, because I feel like I have many interests and they can lead me down so many different paths, with no way to tell which is better than the rest. I think it's sad on our part that we can't physically visit colleges to pick and choose which ones we like because that's a huge part of everyone's experience, and we're missing out on that. But, either way, I think when it's time to make a decision, we can all make the best out of whatever situation we're placed in as long as we remember to have a positive mindset!
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